decisions

Sometimes, I do things and THEN think about.

I have a really nice schedule this semester. Super nice. Like SO EFFING NICE its ridiculous. The thing about this is that I have two options: be lazy, go to yoga, get ‘acclimated’ to the city, pick up an odd job or two, etc. OR get an internship. I applied for one on a whim, thinking that I would send her my resume and then never hear again. Well, it didn’t go that way. And now I need to think about how I want to spend my semester.

TRUTH TIMEZ!?! I don’t want to spend my first semester at school at all stressed out. I am a stressed out person by nature – the most minuscule things send me flying into fits of rage/crying/etc. So I know that inevitably, I will get stressed out. But I like the idea of eliminating potential stressors with this whole jump back into real life. As excited as I am for this, I also just want it to go well. On one hand, this internship sounds like a lot and I’m not sure I want to make that commitment when I really have no idea if I can make that commitment. ON THE OTHER HAND, this could be an amazing opportunity I’m turning down and I don’t even realize it.

I just don’t know. I think I’m going to sleep on it.

GAHHHH.